It's been years...

Alright so it's been years since my last post.. who cares im pretty sure im the only one who reads this thing anyway. So things have changed are are changing. I moved away to Michigan for almost a year then moved back EXCITING! lol then I startted working full time at my current job where I met the man I never knew I always wanted. My sweet and manly Bob, Bob the Biker to be exact! Who would have guessed!?!?! Well I fantisized but never would have guessed. He's perfect for me in every way and were getting married in November :) I cant wait to begin the next chapter of my life with him. Anyway if I think about it and when things settle down after the wedding I will post a picture of us all dolled up anad gettin hitched!

Oh the possibilities...

Possibilities are bright and shiny bubbles that attract the child within. I am that child! I have before me these wonderful shiny bubbles and am so excited to watch them. The places they can lead me to are places... well maybe its the future I have been dreaming of. You should see the smile I can't wipe from my face. The things that I want are small, little victories, but oh the damage (that's a good thing here) they could do to my heart!

Through the looking glass.

So I have been away, I've not written in over a year and well lets face it no one missed me. That's not pity its just truth. I'm okay with the truth. Ive spent this year trying to find the truth. Honesty and truth are risky things to try and catch. They are elusive creatures that only appear in the darkest of times. There's not many conversations that include "Truth be told..." "well the truth is..." "just tell me the truth..." and have much of a happy ending. But! If you have an open heart you may be able to see the glimmer of light that comes with that truth. Sometimes its in the form of open arms welcoming you home and sometimes its an open door releasing you into the cleansing light. Either way you have the truth.

Its been to long...

So its because of a new friend that i am here writing. Its funny how inspiration can come to you. im not saying im all geared up to write everyday but i am aware of how much i miss writing. Id have to go back and read my last post to see where i left off, but i can tell you that so much has changed since then.

How...

How do you do it? How do you live life? How do you make choices? I remember a time when life just happened around me. I was young and willng to watch others make choices and learn the hard way. I was content to learn by watching. Then a time came when all i wanted was to be able to make a few of my own mistakes. Then he showed up. My life was full every choice was full of life, love and happiness.

Im an idiot

I paid 16 dollars to make myself cry... I'm an idiot. I'm a fool in love... I expected to be. I'm a fool about most things. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I say whats on my heart... that gets me in trouble ALL the time! Its like when you have to burp but your in public and it would be sooooo rude. No matter waht you do how deep you breath its coming up... Well that is my what happens to me when my mind races and my heart is full. It just builds and builds till I can't hold it in anymore and out it comes, my words. I do my best to not let them be rude words, but I cant stop the emotion that they ride on.

A new beggining

So here I am at the beginning of a new path. A job promotion! I'm praying things work out to the fullest! I'm very excited to do something new and to be challenged. Only time will tell. Here is to the unknown and the new!