How...

How do you do it? How do you live life? How do you make choices? I remember a time when life just happened around me. I was young and willng to watch others make choices and learn the hard way. I was content to learn by watching. Then a time came when all i wanted was to be able to make a few of my own mistakes. Then he showed up. My life was full every choice was full of life, love and happiness.

Im an idiot

I paid 16 dollars to make myself cry... I'm an idiot. I'm a fool in love... I expected to be. I'm a fool about most things. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I say whats on my heart... that gets me in trouble ALL the time! Its like when you have to burp but your in public and it would be sooooo rude. No matter waht you do how deep you breath its coming up... Well that is my what happens to me when my mind races and my heart is full. It just builds and builds till I can't hold it in anymore and out it comes, my words. I do my best to not let them be rude words, but I cant stop the emotion that they ride on.

A new beggining

So here I am at the beginning of a new path. A job promotion! I'm praying things work out to the fullest! I'm very excited to do something new and to be challenged. Only time will tell. Here is to the unknown and the new!

Update on Alice...

So it's been three years but here I am. HAHAHA I had forgotten all about my blog site. Well an update for any of you wondering... I have since healed from the pain of the dissolution of my "family" only to be greeted by new ways of being loved and new members to my family. I am happy and very much in love with my family dynamic these days. We have all moved on and are excited by our new paths.

Many years later...

So here I am Alice, as it were, years down the long dark rabbit whole. It's hard to believe it's been 3 years since my last post. I remeber the girl who wrote it. She is since long gone. Hurt and angry has become forgiven and loved. The family dinamic I once knew is not the one I live with today but this one is much more fulfilling. There is so much love that surounds us all. It is surprising how what seems like tragedy can be the one thing that can heal your soul. I love all of my family and every person they have connected to them. We still have our issues